So last weekend was kind of a bummer. And this week has been somewhat of a rollercoaster, with high highs and, well, you get the idea.
First time in some time I haven't celebrated 4-20. Bittersweet.
Anyway, hopefully this weekend I'll be heading downstate to go see 'Forbidden Kingdom', since last weekend's plans were cancelled/postponed. Maybe Mark can go. Who knows? He'll be a whining little fickle bitch without Markie there to suck on, but still, when I can chip away the whole lovesick puppy act to get back to the pre-Markie fun Mark, I still enjoy his company.
Saw Ryan for the first time in a couple years last Saturday. He scared me a bit. Usually I really have a weakness for goth-ish guys (I know, I'm lame, whatever). But, he was a tad frightening. He wouldn't look at me for about an hour, (even though usually people that see him tell me that he either says hi or asks about me, eliminating the whole 'grudge' possibility), and when I looked at him, it was just a wall of hair covering his face (except the giant nose).
Went to Claire's yesterday. Bought some hairties and an adorable pair of Hello Kitty armwarmers. Last Friday, I purchased a ring from Wal*Mart while volunteering there for the Red Cross with Willow and Mark. Twas fun, I suppose. Really hot punk guys were there, and I saw Sheldon, Sunny, and Patty! Hurrah!
Arghh, I get so tired of posers. I never thought I'd say that since 7th grade, but it's true. Emily "Canned Ham" Harris is now dating Morgan "NaruTard" Whitman. Now, Morgan MIGHT be BI, but Emily is as straight as a fucking razor. It's like, alright, we get it. You're 'down with the fags'. But you don't need to pretend like you're something you aren't.
GOD, EVERY TIME THAT GIRL OPENS HER MOUTH I WANT TO SHOOT HER.
Not even kidding, you guys.
And it's so obvious she still likes Mark. xD I just wish someone (besides her ex-boyfriends, both of whom I have tremendous respect for now) else would tell her to shut the hell up. I know I'm not the only person sick of her. Other people have said it too. Akjfpwovihrenguoo8iyrg!!!
I'm not going to prom anymore. That's a little disheartening, but I'm doing it out of the goodness of my dumb old heart. There's always next year, and who knows? I might even snag a date.
Who am I kidding? I'm the anti-crush, in spite of the small group that claims that David Ryan likes me. Which isn't farking true.
Mr. Robson is sick. This worries me. I really sincerely love the man (not in a Hot for Teacher way, perv), and if he gets SICK, I honestly don't know how I'll be able to finish high school, or at least high school band. :[
Book Update! I've been reading a ton lately.
Tuesdays with Morrie sucks.
Among the Hidden was bad.
Wicked was fabulous, but I already know that. I just hadn't gotten the chance to finish it before and just got done re-reading it.
Malcolm X's Autobiography was very insightful, though reminded me how evil organized religion of any sort is, and reignited my hatred for the White Man.
Fast Food Nation is good. Though everyone knows how bad the Fast Food industry is.
I wish I could find a CD of the original broadway 'Sweeney Todd'. All I have is the album. Dx Not very portable, you see.
Ugh, May is nearly here. That means that my birthday is just around the corner. Once again, I'll be forgotten. Ah well. But I'll be another year closer to leaving home, and the real world should be an adventure, especially considering I've looked into a few art schools (I've changed my mental major from writing to composition and music...after all, being a novelist doesn't require a major, and with a music degree, perhaps I could teach as a means of paying the rent). So far, I've only found three that catch my interest. The locations aren't bad either. Seattle, New York, and San Fransisco are all places I can see myself ending up, if I stay in the US. n_n
I know, teaching? Me? Balderdash.
But it's really not. Teachers in the arts are just so different than others, particularly in the Math and History departments. Science teachers can have a certain flair, as can English, really, but...it's not the same. Also, teaching's not a bad gig. Nice pay, summers off, etc. I could do it. Also, being a band or music teacher means no papers to grade, and if I did High School, then that means that the students I tought were mainly there because they WANTED to be.
Except I would meet young versions of myself.
And that would be dreadful.
You are an Atheist
When it comes to religion, you're a non-believer (simple as that).
You prefer to think about what's known and proven.
You don't need religion to solve life's problems.
Instead, you tend to work things out with logic and philosophy.